All my life

all Ive ever wanted to listen to was agoraphobic nosebleed. Well, thats how it wouldve been had i heard of them back then. Anyways its all i want to listen to now, and the faceless which is nothing new :P (they are amazing) half day of school today, which kind of makes everything weird because i got here at like 10:10 which is still early enough to catch second period IF it was a normal day. Not to mention i have no gas at all and I cant leave school until 12:30 BUT today I get out at like 11. hmmm ill just convince some people to hang out with me and ill be like "dont worry, i leave early all the time" hahaha make them feel like Im skipping too and i could get fucked too. Ha i should work for the principle, convincing kids to go skip with me and then just taking them to his office haha (ONLY IF HE PAID) nah but not really. Been reading about horoscopes and stuff like that good stuff good stuff.

Heres mine Im a capricorn/sagittarius cusp
(TL;DR)

Sagittarius is the ninth sign of the Zodiac; Capricorn is the tenth. Sagittarius/Capricorns use knowledge to understand the world and hard work to master it. Those born on this cusp are both ambitious and disciplined, determined and dedicated to achieving their goals. They are also practical and realistic, cautious not to get in over their head. Sagittarius/Capricorns are the scholars and learners of the zodiac. They seek the truth and the meaning of life, and they love to explore. The astrological symbol of Sagittarius is the Archer. The Archer is a Centaur, half man and half horse, and it is the only sign of the zodiac that is half man and half beast. Centaurs were the great scholars and intellectuals of Greek and Roman myth, but they could also be hotheaded and aggressive. The astrological symbol of Capricorn is the Sea Goat. They start from the sea and ascend to the highest mountain tops, working their way upward with every step. While the path is not always smooth, their determination to succeed ensures they will persevere. They can also be rigid and unforgiving when others stand in their way. Sagittarius/Capricorns are not fixed or opinionated, and they have no set plan or bias, but seek to learn new ideas as they come. This aspect is indicative of the mutable nature of the sun sign Sagittarius. These people often excel in the workplace and are business leaders, often starting businesses or coming up with new ideas. In this way, Capricorn exemplifies the cardinal quality assigned to it. Capricorns' organizational ability combines with their diligence to help them achieve their goals. Sagittarius/Capricorns desire the freedom to do what they want when they want, and they tend to be impulsive and independent. Sagittarius is ruled by the planet Jupiter. In ancient Roman mythology, Jupiter (and his Greek equivalent, Zeus) was the king of the gods. Jupiter represents expansion in all its forms, including the mental outreach so prominent in Sagittarians, but it also may invite excess. Capricorn is ruled by the planet Saturn. In ancient Roman mythology, Saturn (and his Greek equivalent, Cronus) was the father of many of the gods, including Zeus. Saturn is about discipline, hard work and responsibility. Sagittarius/Capricorns are interested in mental exploration as teachers and philosophers, and are loyal and charitable, self-controlled and self-reliant. They are also trustworthy and charming, adaptable to all situations. The element associated with Sagittarius is Fire. The element associated with Capricorn is Earth. Fire/Earth Signs are physical and practical. While they are about action and leadership, they are not in a hurry. Their innate optimism and belief in straightforward dealings with others can sometimes make them careless or impulsive, but underneath they are economical, shrewd and rather conservative. Sagittarius/Capricorns love to have a good time, and they are outgoing and friendly. They are, however, also among the most responsible and traditional signs of the zodiac. They are generally polite and warm, because they understand that making enemies will not help them achieve in life. Many Sagittarius/Capricorns are natural comedians, sometimes exaggerating their adventures to entertain others. Their innate self-confidence may make them argumentative or blunt, but their intention is to learn, not to offend. They are high-spirited and enthusiastic, often flirtatious, and they tend to enjoy social life immensely. In their leisure time, Sagittarius/Capricorns athleticism comes to the forefront. Personal challenge is always appreciated, and they tend to prefer competition with others. One-on-one competition also appeals to them, and they especially enjoy golf and martial arts. They tend to be lucky, and may enjoy gambling. Thanks to their philosophical side, they also enjoy drama, debate and most other mentally challenging pursuits. In love relationships, Sagittarius/Capricorns are flirtatious, devoted and playful. The great strength of the Sagittarius/Capricorn-born is in their philosophical and exploratory nature. It is important to them that they live life to the fullest, experiencing everything they can. Their ambition is inexhaustible, and they are not easily deterred when their goals are in sight. Their hard work makes them one of the most successful characters of the Zodiac.






Im mostly capricorn though and Renata is the same cusp as me but closer to sagittarius
anyways

it said we match too haha
(go figure) :P

OMG SO LONG
btw this is a detailed charts readings

Rising Sign is in 22 Degrees Pisces Very sensitive to your surroundings, other people's feelings become your feelings. Try to avoid negative people because your tendency to empathize with them will make you negative also. An idealist, you must believe in something beyond your normal everyday existence. A dreamer, you like to escape to a world of your own creation. As such, you are known for the vividness of your imagination and should try to share your inner visions with others. Very self-sacrificial by nature, beware of others becoming overly dependent on you or vice versa. Allow yourself to live for yourself once in a while -- you deserve it. Don't be so envious of those who are more aggressive than you -- your gentle charity and true humility are indeed wonderful gifts. on the tenth house cusp (MIDHEAVEN). Sun is in 01 Degrees Capricorn. Extremely serious and mature, you are capable of accepting responsibilities and do so willingly. Others expect you to be dutiful as a matter of course. You tend to get angry when people get rewards after not having worked anywhere near as hard as you. You are goal-oriented and an achiever by nature -- you're a hard worker and are justifiably proud of the tangible results of your efforts. You tend to have "tunnel-vision" -- this allows you to block out extraneous matters that might distract others and to concentrate totally on the matter at hand. As such, you are the ideal one to manage or administrate any ongoing project and to be practical and efficient at it. You are not a fast worker, but you are quite thorough. You are known for being totally persistent, tenacious and tireless in reaching your goals. Moon is in 14 Degrees Pisces. You have strong feelings and are extremely sensitive. It would help if you had a thicker skin -- you tend to react emotionally to every situation you come across. Kind, gentle and considerate of the feelings of others, you are good at taking care of the sick, wounded and helpless. But you tend to absorb the energy of others -- so avoid those who are always negative. You have a rich, creative and lively imagination, but you should be careful not to spend all your time daydreaming. Very intuitive, you have good ESP and may be quite clairvoyant or psychic. Remember that you too have the right to get what you want from life. If you are always defensive and kowtowing to others, people will take advantage of you and exploit you.

Summary

Wellllllll, my sister had her baby at 12:44 on thursday the 23rd of April. Heres how it went for me, I woke up and went to school, just barely managing to log in enough hours for the day to actually be considered present (high-five) then I went and picked up Renata just going about like any other thursday. Until She tells me that she got a call from Josh saying that Jessica had the baby. Obviously i HAD TO GO and i end3ed up dropping Renata and her brother off at home because for whatever reason (dont remember buaha) Renata couldnt come with me to see my new baby neice (which would be nice and put things into perspective with us ;) ) but oh well, I had forgotten to call my mom for directions and i have no cell phone (they are for earners) the only information I had for the hospital was EXIT 128, so i took the exit ramp off and flipped a coin and went left. Thank you god because you apparently gave me good fortune with that cointoss and i found the hospital just down the road. I ran in asking for Jessica Bumgarner, got her room number and jumped in the elevator. I found her room and slowly opened the door. I could see about 10 family members crowding the room and signs that pretty much the entire family had been in the room at some point. The spread open like the curtains to a play or something leaving my sister, holding her new BEAUTIFUL daughter. She kind of looks like me... And thats when i knew this was an important moment in all our lives :)


Oh and of course, i hung out with Renata Sunday and we had a great time. Well, as good a time as we could have with her Dad constantly bothering her and going on with his gay little "concerned father" antics. You know, making us stay in the living room, making her do chores while im there to obvioulsy keep her busy, and from getting drunk and high and diseased and PREGNANT BY THAT JACOB KID! :P But we did still have a good time, we made sandwhiches (she took a bite of hers before we left!!!!) (PARENTHESIS!) and chips and cookies and had a picnic. Even though her dad eventually ruined that, we still got a good 10 minutes of alone time to watch the sunset and look at the stars, and the whole time, all i could think about was that someday, we could do this all that we wanted and just be together without all the other people there bothering us. *sigh* someday. <3

EDIT: haha this one ended almost the same as the last entry

Nosebleeds

Hi
Things have been going well for me, just got out of spring break and i can honestly say that i had fun :) Spent most of it with Renata (yay) thats always a good way to spend my time haha
We even went to blowing rock with her family and at first she was feeling kind of down but i like to think i helped her feel better haha :D Regardless of if i helped she seems happy and thats all that matters. Anyways, i hung out with my stepbrother steven too and we just sat at home and played video games into the early morning hours. Dude i almost forgot, me him and Renata all played fucking laser tag. Like, a bunch haha. It was fun, even though we lost Renatas little brother and he was crying because he was so scared and i had to go talk to him mano e mano. But i comforted him and it was all good and stuff because IM EVERYONES DAD. Meanwhile renata and i actually were pretty depressed because all it takes is one of us to be upset and no matter what, the other can try to cheer them up but we end up just sharing emotions, its weird but idk it says something good about our relationship and how close we are, so i love it :D:D:D
i havent been to a goodass show in too long. I need to fucking beat some kids faces in. Its a good release ;) DUDE my abnd fucking recorded and got pics like 3 weeks ago and the kid thats supposed to post them fucking HASNT even though i see his ass on myspace all the time. Now, me and him are good ass friends and shit but idk man if he cant even fucking do one little thing for me then its whatever. I dont need people like that. BUT, i dont want top get ahead of myself, we are still friends and maybe (just maybe) he really just cant post it for whatever reason and now i sound like a dick. nothing new :P Oh, and i have a job set up for as soon as i graduate and its apparently a really good paying job so it can probably support me during the the fall when i start going to college (probably CCC & TI) and then i can get my own little apartment with a close friend as a room mate and Renata can come over alllll the fucking time and we can just be together with nobody ruining it. *sigh* i just cant wait <3

Now youve done it, blogger

Now I know (and so does everyone else) that me and you are in a crazy, rollercoaster ride of a relationship and i would do anything for you. But this is ridiculous, no blogger, no i will not take "uppers" with you.

I do not like them in a house.

I do not like them with a mouse.

I do not like them here or there.

I do not like them anywhere

thats green eggs and ham btw.

macadenu, imma denu

macadenu denu denu

macadamus

imma tetron

imma tetron

tetron tetron

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

AAAAAAAAAAAAH!

woooh, that NEVER gets old

never...

Im not sure

just not sure about anything anymore. Might be going to hang out with brandon today i think his mom was gonna get us like a bunch of chinese or something idk but boo-yah. Hes just about the only person i can have a decent conversation about music with. I wish i didnt miss that Faceless show last night but nobody wanted to go with me, not even Renata. I guess if i actually like a band then the rest of the world hates them haha. Then Saturday me and Renata are going to a rodeo teehee it should be kind of fun amybe but afterward me, her and my mom are gonna go try to find a vest for me to wear to prom. Should be nice i guess idk. But then im going to statesville to stay and i think i will hit up some old friends and have a good time. Idk it should be a pretty kickass weekend. Hmmm I wonder if Renata really did try to kiss Emma? :P

Riding

man, i dont post enough entries in this blog to go into many details (anymore) but ill try not to speak in generalities, okay? :)

Well, things are good for me but to be honest they always are. I got some things sorted out at school and i ended up with only 2 classes buahaha. I just moved back in with my dad after what seemed like a month long binder. I am still head over heels by the way, and holy shit, yesterday renata FELL DOWN THE STAIRS and hurt her ankle so i went over and layed with her and tried to help her with stuff and it was nice, except her recent injury :P (btw my blogs are jumpy like my mind but you are gonna have to bare with me) i feel like im at a key part of my life, and this is where everything needs to fall in place. I need to graduate and get on the right path and head off to college. I need to be better in my relationship with Renata. God knows she deserves it. In fact, she even mentioned breaking up with me and i know it was just an impulsive, quick thought but it devastated me. I was just pacing up and down a hallway for like 45 minutes, not knowing if i should scream and break something or just cry or something, so i did neither haha. Sometimes it does feel like shes not feeling as strongly about me as i do about her but thats okay. Nothing i can do to change that i guess except be myself and do my best. Really, nothing bad ever happens i just get super upset over stupid little shit. Thats really what causes our few little problems. Like we went to a little party thing and up until the end everything was perfect. Like, we were laughing and having fun and we were the only ones dancing for a slow song and it was really nice but then we got in an elevator, and she just mentioned that last time she was at that place, well, it doesnt matter its not really any of your business but she just said some meaningless little thing and i felt sick afterward. I hate this blog because i start most entries on a positive note but end up talking about a bunch of stupid little bullshit. But its not accurate because there are soooo many things going on that are just amazing but i guess i get used to it and then all i can see is the bad stuff. I dont want that to happen, because i could end up losing all the good things and just be stuck with the all the bad stuff that at one time is all i could think about. yeah i hope this made sense by the way :P That didnt really come out the way i meant it, i meant it like...

Renata is so amazing and perfect (which she doesnt even know) and i have this flaw that makes me see stupid little stuff and get upset. But, i promise it wont happen anymore. pinky promise. <3

Slam

Man oh man, im sorry ive been neglecting you, blogger. i dont really consider anything that happens to me "blogger-worthy" but whatever. god ive been skipping soooo much class. but its ok becuase i only need one credit and ive got a 97 in principles of business! boo-yah.Ive been hanging out with my friend brandon a lot lately which is good because hes prolly been my friend for a larger portion of my life than anyone else. hes funny as shit too. My ears are up to 7/16s i shouldve skipped to 1/2 but i wanted to play it safe. God, see i told you blogger, this stuff is puretty boring ha. I do have some interesting stuff to say though so chill out. Things are STILL going well with Renata. Well is a bit of an understatement though. I mean we DO hav3e disagreements and bad days and stuff but the thing that makes us so amazing together is that we just get through it and bounce back, better than ever :D Not to mention, ive never felt this strongly about a girl before. I try to give her space and stuff but i want to see her so badly that i must come off as needy sometimes but I DONT CARE. buahaha. GODAMN i love molotov solution. Yeah, im listening to them right now, i just want to raise my fist to the heavens and scream it from a mountain top "this band is really good!" :P. i think im gonna quit watching TV for a while. Life just seems so much better without it. Like yesterday, I woke up, and fished all day. I hadnt fished in atleast 4 years or so and i had forgotten just how relaxing it is. Everything else just fades away and all that matters is you and the lake. *sigh* Back to relationships and gheyness, Im actually going with her to look for a dress for someone else. I dont think you guys understand what this means, if it was with ANYONE ELSE IN THE WORLD theres no fucking way i would go. srsly. I wish i could be more romantic