Riding

man, i dont post enough entries in this blog to go into many details (anymore) but ill try not to speak in generalities, okay? :)

Well, things are good for me but to be honest they always are. I got some things sorted out at school and i ended up with only 2 classes buahaha. I just moved back in with my dad after what seemed like a month long binder. I am still head over heels by the way, and holy shit, yesterday renata FELL DOWN THE STAIRS and hurt her ankle so i went over and layed with her and tried to help her with stuff and it was nice, except her recent injury :P (btw my blogs are jumpy like my mind but you are gonna have to bare with me) i feel like im at a key part of my life, and this is where everything needs to fall in place. I need to graduate and get on the right path and head off to college. I need to be better in my relationship with Renata. God knows she deserves it. In fact, she even mentioned breaking up with me and i know it was just an impulsive, quick thought but it devastated me. I was just pacing up and down a hallway for like 45 minutes, not knowing if i should scream and break something or just cry or something, so i did neither haha. Sometimes it does feel like shes not feeling as strongly about me as i do about her but thats okay. Nothing i can do to change that i guess except be myself and do my best. Really, nothing bad ever happens i just get super upset over stupid little shit. Thats really what causes our few little problems. Like we went to a little party thing and up until the end everything was perfect. Like, we were laughing and having fun and we were the only ones dancing for a slow song and it was really nice but then we got in an elevator, and she just mentioned that last time she was at that place, well, it doesnt matter its not really any of your business but she just said some meaningless little thing and i felt sick afterward. I hate this blog because i start most entries on a positive note but end up talking about a bunch of stupid little bullshit. But its not accurate because there are soooo many things going on that are just amazing but i guess i get used to it and then all i can see is the bad stuff. I dont want that to happen, because i could end up losing all the good things and just be stuck with the all the bad stuff that at one time is all i could think about. yeah i hope this made sense by the way :P That didnt really come out the way i meant it, i meant it like...

Renata is so amazing and perfect (which she doesnt even know) and i have this flaw that makes me see stupid little stuff and get upset. But, i promise it wont happen anymore. pinky promise. <3

Slam

Man oh man, im sorry ive been neglecting you, blogger. i dont really consider anything that happens to me "blogger-worthy" but whatever. god ive been skipping soooo much class. but its ok becuase i only need one credit and ive got a 97 in principles of business! boo-yah.Ive been hanging out with my friend brandon a lot lately which is good because hes prolly been my friend for a larger portion of my life than anyone else. hes funny as shit too. My ears are up to 7/16s i shouldve skipped to 1/2 but i wanted to play it safe. God, see i told you blogger, this stuff is puretty boring ha. I do have some interesting stuff to say though so chill out. Things are STILL going well with Renata. Well is a bit of an understatement though. I mean we DO hav3e disagreements and bad days and stuff but the thing that makes us so amazing together is that we just get through it and bounce back, better than ever :D Not to mention, ive never felt this strongly about a girl before. I try to give her space and stuff but i want to see her so badly that i must come off as needy sometimes but I DONT CARE. buahaha. GODAMN i love molotov solution. Yeah, im listening to them right now, i just want to raise my fist to the heavens and scream it from a mountain top "this band is really good!" :P. i think im gonna quit watching TV for a while. Life just seems so much better without it. Like yesterday, I woke up, and fished all day. I hadnt fished in atleast 4 years or so and i had forgotten just how relaxing it is. Everything else just fades away and all that matters is you and the lake. *sigh* Back to relationships and gheyness, Im actually going with her to look for a dress for someone else. I dont think you guys understand what this means, if it was with ANYONE ELSE IN THE WORLD theres no fucking way i would go. srsly. I wish i could be more romantic

Bombshell

Sooo much of those little things that you think people will find interesting on blogspot have happened to me since last post. But i think im going to ignore them and post about something important.
ahem
Renata is the most amazing girl ive ever met and im confident enough (and not embarassed) to say that im in love with her
there
put that in your pipe and smoke it :D

Things

Fuck Life
WTF Renata
srsly
that message to that weirdass kid about snuggling with him and calling him your true love
godamn, its like you want me to feel like shit sometimes

spoon-feeding

nothing much mothing much, saw renata yesterday and we rented EVIL-FUCKING-DEAD-TWO!
oh yeah no big deal, right? NO its the best movie ever. It was nice haha having half a day off and ACTUALLY being with Renata too. Even if shes on the rag... :P nah its no big deal, its just a week or whatever. Theres a show tomorrow and im stoked about xHONORx but im not fucking staying My Hero Is Me. FUCK THAT BAND. I hate their music, i hate them, and i hate people that dont hate them like I do. My dad is being super weird lately too. He seems really mad about something but he wont tell me and he wont even let me call my godamn girlfriend D: The Sea-Wolf continues to be an amazing piece of literature. I only read it little by little periodically throughout the day so i can like, really take it all in you know? Its nice going to shows and everything but its bitter-sweet bc i hate all the faggoty drama that comes out of it EVERY TIME. But its nothing new, if you want good music your gonna have to put up with a bunch of douchebags who want to look cool. Ill just do what i always do, go to the show, stick to myself and talk to old friends, im not much for making new buddies at shows, mostly enemies. If someone gives me shit, that sucks for them because i get really violent at shows, i think bc i keep it alllll in during day-to-day life. It must really build up by the time i get to a show and its the only place to vent.

Stand Back

Andrea and Renata love Blogger

im IN Love with Blogger


EDIT: You guys wait, i get to reannact this picture

Move

Its Monday, which means here i am in second period typing up a blog about my weekend. I didnt really do all that much. Friday i went to Renatas and watched Donnie Darko and we had fun :) saturday i pretty much went to like 4 peoples houses and just chilled all day then sneaked renata out and got some food. Yesterday i didnt do much either, just went to my cousins and went to statesville for a little while. I lost my key which is the only one i have and i had to search for it for like 40 minutes. Ah this entry sucks. Seeing Renata today :D