Fucked up

Well i fucked up,
it all started when i went to the doctors office yesterday. No big deal but when i got out i figured id stop by and see my cousin before i went home. Did a bunch of stuff with him and then he told me he needed a ride to statesville to stay with his friend. It didnt seem that bad since my mom lives in statesville and i could just stay there tomorrow. Until like 12 and then go get renata from school and hang out with her. Well, that was the PLAN. It obviously didnt work that way. Ok so i droppedmy cousin off and went to my moms. I was really low on gas by now but i knew my mom would spot me 10 or 5 dollars. Well i wokeup at 5 in the morning and saw my mom. I remembered i needed gas money and asked her about it. She didnt have any money. FUCK. but i passed out again. I was freaking out when io woke up at like 10 because i knew i had to contact renata somehow but i couldnt. 1. Her cell doesnt work 2. IM not allowed on my stepdads computer just his son which is really fucked up. and 3. i lost her house number bc im a dumbass. so yeah i was freaking out but i couldnt think of anything to do but wait until mom got home, get money from her, speed home and call renata. welllll, turns out she told my stepdad to give me money and he KNEW my situation and everything and didnt FUCKING TELL ME ABOUT THE MONEY UNTIL LIKE 3:30. So yeah i didnt get home until whenever and Renata is PISSED at me for not contacting her. So i feel like shit and i hope she gives me another chance or whatever. I want this shit to work and i just want her to feel better. At this point theres really nothing i can do but wait and just hope everything works out. Yeah great.





Ps. ok its like an hour later, everything is fine :D
renata told me to baleet this entry, but i couldnt do that to ALL MY READERS :P